I beat myself up all the time because I don't or can't read the climate reports. It feels like I can't. I'm not gonna read anyone's book about it unless it's poetry. I can't even consume nature videos anymore, which is REALLY FUCKIN RICH. But then I remember when I learned about global warming in school, learned about plastics and their extracted relatives at summer camp, learned about ecosystems by being a top-level cog. I have spent my whole life looking at birds and plants and wondering about their lives. Worrying.